Yesterday, in the midst of a migraine, I tackled submitting my work for publication, prepared multiple blogs, spent two hours learning more about my OCF, saw some photographer friends and prepared shot lists for the four weddings I have this month. Tonight, I’m online chatting with some people, people I don’t even know and I realized that right now, at the peak of my business, busier than ever before…I’m simply terrified.
I’m scared I will cease to be relevant.
I’m nervous I will fail my clients.
I’m at my wits end trying to accomplish so much in such a short span.
What if I give the haters fuel to say “I told you so!”?
Today, I invested in more necessary equipment and two hours of mentoring with a fellow photographer to strengthen my knowledge of my flash system (in case you were curious where my session fees go. Not to martinis by the beach, that’s for sure!)
Here is Devon, letting me take his picture as I learn to overpower the sun outside his studio space. SOOC and everything! Just wait for me to use this on awesome engagement sessions and weddings!
But I do have to admit, that if I cease to be relevant tomorrow, I can admit I have had a wild ride. And I’m super glad I’ve already gotten my tickets to Vegas.