Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m a pretty confident person in life. I’ve overcome a lot of things and those that know me, repeatedly tell me I’m the strongest person they know (normally when I’m bawling on the phone, mind you). Granted, I’ve done and seen a lot of things in my 26 years of life, including backpacking in Europe, tolerated military life, been married twice, started my own business and rode in rodeos. I have also gone skydivingI’ve made some great decisions and I’ve made some BAD BAD BAD decisions. Like that one time I misspoke to some German cabbie and he got me lost and I panicked and….nevermind.
The fact is though, despite my confidence, I am a true believer in “fake it til you make it.” To all small business owners, this is the biggest tool I could possibly give you. Remember when you see in movies where the stars are trying to sneak into an exclusive club and one character says, “Just walk in like you know what you’re doing!” and they get into the club and have the time of their lives? Yep, that’s what life IS like, especially when starting a business. It also applies to dating, parenting, cooking, working out…etc….even styling hair. I suck at styling my hair. Bet you didn’t know that until now…or maybe you did…
When I started this business, I was terrified. And I’ll let you in on a little secret…I’m STILL terrified. This terror, this ball of sick in my stomach, keeps me fueled and motivated. It’s why I work 14 hour days regularly. It’s why I give nothing but the most excellent customer service. It’s why I work my ass off. I’m scared that I’ll never been good enough, that I’ll never achieve my dreams. Hence, faking it until I make it. Now, don’t ask me how I’ll know when I’ve made it, because I just don’t know. Maybe when someone calls me one day saying, “OMG I LOVE YOUR WORK!!! CAN I FLY YOU TO BALI TO PHOTOGRAPH MY WEDDING?!”
Then I think I’m well on my way to famousity. So what is the elephant in the room? I haven’t worked out in the past week, because I have been too busy editing. So the elephant is me and my belly. Juuuuuuust kidding.